HAR HAR HAR !!

hljhlj

2010-06-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

hey peeps , i think i have neglected my blog soooo much right ????

i misses blogging too ..

so , the updates are ...

baby will be gone for a month ..

i feel sooo lonely now ...

i miss you , i really do ...

come back fast my darling boy ..

tmrw gonna be our 16th months baby ..

im gonna celebrate it alone , by myself ..

haizz ..

it has been so long we've been together ,

yet nothing has change in my heart .

only you abu halifah .

with all the fightings , arguings ,

we managed to go this far ..

see .. how strong is our love .

next ,

aba , me and didi are planning for a holiday !!

after so long ah !

its either , jakarta , bangkok or melaka .

i would love it ,if its jakarta !

i wanna go to dunia fantasia !

DUFAN !

but i think most probably will be going to melaka lor ..

mane lagi kan ..

i dont mind actually ..

janji dpt happy2 dgn family .

next saturday ,

i will be meeting my lovely frens that i had missed so much .

i just cant wait for saturday !

n im currently working in flextronics wif didi .

quite fun lah .

okay okay blueberry lah .

heh !

gonna be end of contract soon .

cant wait !

2010-02-13T00:00:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO US !

darlingboy ...

that's what you are to me.

Years ago when we met, I fell in love with you.

Nothing has changed;I love you still...more than ever.

When you're not near me, I feel an emptiness that I can't seem to fill.

When you are near, I feel complete.

I cherish your love and companionship and always hope to please you.

I always wish for your happiness,for I love to see the sparkle in your eyes.

I never imagined that someone could be as important as you are to me.

Please stay near and love me as I love you.

2010-01-05T20:11:00.000-08:00

its been so long people since i last updated my blog .
life was so busy ,

sleepy ,

tiring but happening .

busy with working ,

sleepy cause of not enough sleep ,

tiring cause of too many walkings and happening cause i've got to see boyfriend everyday and we always had fun during work .

we had stepped to our 10months few weeks ago .

n yea ,

time goes very very fast .

with all the quarrellings ,

sometimes i just feel like letting u go cos i really cant take it with ur attitude .

only god knows how i feel .

its too painful .

somemore u dont even have trust on me .

like wtf sia !

please lah ..

wake uplah abu .

stop being like a small kid .

haiya .

im just waiting for u to change .

for now , im not schooling .

i'd prefer working than schooling .

its my life so i dont give a damn with what people say .

right ayu ???

we hate school right ?? :)

school just sucks .

get to meet with all sort of typical mat and minah-rep .

eewww !

i dont like it !

hey , tmrw pay day !

yippeee !!

we gonna get high on thursday !

weeeeehaaaa !

i just love working life !

7 more days baby !

2009-11-13T20:08:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 9TH MONTHS BABY !!

very fast ah .

with all the ups and downs we gone through ,

we still managed to go this far .

i love you so much .

i dont care what people gonna say about you ,

coz i love you for who you are .

i love u boy !

2009-11-06T00:00:00.000-08:00

With all the hardships and pain laughs,

long talks sometimes we drive each other insane but when it comes to loving you I do no one could ever compare because no one is as support,

caring,

and true with all my heart,

I love you more and more from start to end to end from start our loves grows with every breath

we take you are my love my hear my soul ,

no matter what the price or risks I must takeor even what I have to sacrifice

you are my best friend my only one,

I will be here with you until the end

6 MORE DAYS BABY !!!

i love working !

2009-10-21T09:01:00.000-07:00

hello people !
it's been soo long rite ??
yeayea , i know ..
i've been busy working for the past 1 week .
it's quite fun .
got to see some btss peeps like shukor , shah and aliff .
quite shocked huh .
and lie wif baby was great .
in the same working place somemore .
i just love you babyboy even though we always fight .
and girlfriends , i miss you all .

2009-10-10T19:13:00.000-07:00

why do u always give me these kind of attitude ?!

for such a small thing , u're making things bigger !

just stop with ur fucking ego will u !

im tired of going through all this .

can u please change urself before u want to say about my attitude .

pls throw away ur fucking ego !

pls lah abu , stop hurting me like this .

wat wrongs did i do to u ??

nothing !

but u're the one that cant understand my situation .

for god's sake , pls change ..

i beg u ..

2009-10-07T06:36:00.000-07:00

im soooo happy people !!

boyfriend has got his new job !

and me too !

im gonna start on next monday !

and schools' is finishing at last in two days time !!

im sooooooooooooooooooo happy !!!!

and baby ,

6 more days ............

i love you !

2009-10-02T03:12:00.000-07:00

all those pics above was taken during our skipping of lessons .

it was damn fun !

we laughed all the way .

and i love it !

niwaes , i feel sad for kila cos she was caught with contraband ciggs .

haiya !

just bought some more ..

and my hp was taken too .

fcuk !

luckily i went for dc and i got all my stuffs back !

my wallets especially !

today going out to boyfriend's place !
wohoo !

i love it man !

i just love fridays !

i love you baby !

2009-09-20T07:42:00.000-07:00

tats our first day .

hee ..

boyfriend meet me for awhile before i went out .

okay , my face sucks !

so , yea !

had a great hari raya celebration .

because of what ??

people should know !

to all , slamat hari raya !

2009-09-19T00:00:00.000-07:00

its been soo long we didnt take pics together .
i miss sleeping with you at night .
nxt week okay baby ??
hee ..
i cant wait .
fever boy .
i love you .

tats my baby !

us in the f&n classroom .

my punjabi suit for hari raya .

babyboy shiok sendiri .

take 2 .

me and maine during teacher's day .

again .

and again .

has been soo long i didnt update my blog .

just too tired lah .

omg !

just cant believe it tmr is hari raya !

isnt tat fast ??!

but i just dont feel it coz i cant even fast for the whole month due to the continuosly menses .

im tired of this menses .

it was since the past 2-3 months .

everyday i've got to change it even though it is just a little .

i dont know what is happening to me .

i just wanna know my sickess to this .

i've got to wait till 14 october to go for my next appoinment .

it's still quite long .

haiz ..

my last papers will be starting in 2 weeks time .

and i just cant wait for school to end .

i wanna work .

i dont want to continue my studies .

i dont want to waste dads' money for my studies cause im not even interested in studies now .

i just want to work , give dad money , save for needs ..

tats all i want after my N's .

and tis year hari raya gonna be the same for the past 4 years .

mom is not here with us again .

mom , i guess you're dissappointed with me for all that i did .

im sorry mom .

i just cant control myself .

im not a good daughter .

i always think for myself .

i guess tonight you will come back home to see us .

i just hope to see you tonight ,

but im just to afraid to see you because i've hurt u with all my wrongdoings .

i missed the kiss , the touched , the hugs and even the beatings that u gave me .

how i wish i could rewind all this back .

and abg hirsham is not with us too ..

i miss him too ..

it's gonna almost a year he's not back .

please come back brother .

i miss spending my time alone with you when no one is accompanying me at home .

for babyboy ,

i just hope this hari raya you could change ur attitude towards me .

stop being angry without a reason .

u know i love you so much .

i've never love someone like this before .

i hope you would be my 1st and the last baby .

7 months we've been together baby .

and i just want us to be forever and always .

i love you baby .

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL !

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN !

2009-09-06T01:56:00.000-07:00

hey people !

life has been great yea .

N-level has started ,

and i cant wait for it to end .

i hate school !

so, yea ,

nothing much .

6 more days to our 7th month baybeh !

see how fast time flies ..

with all the thicks and thins that we've gone through and we've made it this far .

just waiting for the day baby .

fhedfhe

2009-08-17T07:41:00.000-07:00

i dont care what people say about you or about us dear ,

cos i accepted you sincerely with my whole heart .

i love you .

i love us being like this .

i just want you to stop being paranoid for no reasons .

6 months with so much of ups and downs ,

still we are strong .

those irritating face of yours .
in the darkness .

hee ..

dear concentrating on the tv .

pictas .. pictas of us .

so, yea .

today , baby fetched me from school .

then slack for awhile with shakila .

and straight to my house ,

i washed up ,

give my babies food ,

prepare stuffs to bring to babys' house .

after that , headed to his house ..

eat eat ..

watch dvd ..

smoke smoke ...

and at 9:30 ,

home sweet home !

love spending my time with you dear :)

cheydebah !

tv and dvd player sey in the room .

heheh !

that's my clean room .

yesterday , went to TKC wif sis .

so damn packed !

full of banglas and indons .

oh god !
so .....

crowded !

while sis's driving ,

that's what i did !

that's all people !

heartbroken .

2009-08-15T09:24:00.000-07:00

why are you always doing this to me ?

things that i did not do and would not want to do , you said that i did .

why ??

one week and 2 days we've prevent from fighting .

and what's now ??

i didnt even make you angry and i've been speaking the truth all this while .

6 months had past ..

and why are you doing this to me ??

you purposely wanna break my heart ??

im so fucking dissappointed with you .

stop being childish will you .

im tired lah .

2009-08-14T00:30:00.000-07:00

look , who's that !

ewwww !

captured it in the morning just now while waiting for maine .

boyfriend captured it .
one of the babies .

me and aisah .

makcik kecoh !

new hair sabina !

a bit blur .

heheheh .

armpit !!!

sleep only this boy .

so , thats it people !

yesterday we turned to 6 months !

happy lah ..

and this time boyfriend wish me first .

heheh !

atlast eh kambeng !

kalau tak , asek2 aku kene ckp dulu .

tk gentlemen langsong .

n ya ,

now im having my prelims .

early home people !

just cant wait for school to finish .

f***** school !
with f***** students !

jvkjj

2009-08-08T00:11:00.000-07:00

after getting ready for wedding .
:)

me and bloody sister .

again ..

again .. again ..

again .. again .. again ..

and again ...

look , who's there ???

its my baby !!!

boyfriend took this bird's pic early in the morning .

a weird bird .

but it's big .

getting ready to sleep .

me and darling iza .

again .

thanks to nabeel for the pic .

thanx eh WHITE !

its us again .

boyfriend , me , iza and beel .

had fun with the both of you .

us again .

not so good lah the camera .

loves :P

kesian muke boyfriend .

tu lah pemalas sangat kan nak duduk .

kambeng !

its blurr here .

blurr 2 .

damn blurr .

hahah !

kesian boyfriend .

only got the hair .

lol !

couples :)

national day celebration in school .

slacking under the block for awhile .

in the canteen .

with classmates .

form teacher and classmates .

so , thats it for yesterday's and today's pics .

quite alot ah .

i really had fun with baby , iza and beel last night .

we played true and dare .

fun lah dey !

we laugh a lot last night .

and baby ,

5 more days yea .

i promised not to make you angry anymore okay .

i've been loving you endlessly .

i trust you so much and i hope with this trust you wont take advantage of it .

i love you baby .

i wanna grow old with you .

and that's together our dream .

2009-08-01T06:00:00.000-07:00

baby eating carrot .
my little baby in the house .

from 5 to 4 .

from 4 to 3 .

i love you babies .

we are in good terms now .

hope there would be no more fights .

tired la dey .

i love you .

that night ,

waiting for dad to go johor .

me and shakila at changi .

thanks for teman-ing aku .

that's my daddyboy !

cute right !!

from hospital .

at the hospital .

atlast looky is back .

missing for like 2 months .

i wonder how could he suddenly appear in my room .

hmm ..

something fishy huh .

*12 more days baby *

FUCK !

2009-07-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

im tired of all this .

why cant you understand my feelings ??

today , 2 times straight you broke my heart .

even if bloodtears come out rolling down my cheeks ,

you wont be comforting me ,

you would rather put down the phone than comforting me .

what kind of boyfriend are you ?

you didnt show that you care for me .

and thanks to you now my finger is dislocated .

thanks to you abu .

i just want you to change .

be like some other guys outside who treats his girlfriend with care and concern .

why do you call this relationship a serious one that we gonna go through it together ,

but when we fight the things that you said which is so called 'the best thing' ,

is to go seperate ways .

fuck you lah sia !

sometimes i just hate you to the core .

is this what i get for loving you too much ???

is this ??

IM TIRED !

baby baby .

2009-07-23T07:41:00.000-07:00

i've told you people that babygirl is pregnant right ???

and yea , there she goes .

she's now a BABYMAMA !

gave birth to actually 5 babies but end up only 4 are alive .

take good care of your babies okay :)

not so clear huh .

and there you go !

WELCOME TO THE WORLD BABIES !!

we gonna take care of the 4 of you like how we took care of your parents okay .

be a healthy baby okay .

23 july 2009 .

thats your day babies :)

on my palms .

tinylittlebaby .

sayang baby !

tmr is my mt oral for N .

GDLUCK TO ME :)

and yea ,

had a terrible misuderstanding with the sucker .

who else if not the boyfriend right ..

that bloody sucker .

cb !

EGO !

but no matter what i love you baby :)

2009-07-22T06:33:00.000-07:00

getting ready .
si kudut nak step bodybuilder .
hahah !

a bit blurr ah .

si bulat .

babygirl .

confirm pregnant .

faster ah give birth .

lazy babyboy .

si bulat eating .

alalalalala !!

im not naked okay ..

heee ..

i love you baby .

hee ..

mate nye bulat2 mcm donut .

babyboy with me .

si masam .

cabot time !

its good to make new friends yeah !

the gems .

hahah !

the rest i lazy to type the captions .

so , yea .

today for f&n ,

we baked choc chip muffins and brownie .

fuh !

marvellous man !

hehe !

ade bakat jack !

k bye .

lallalal

2009-07-19T07:32:00.000-07:00

thats my babyboy .

si masam !

the noisy one .

like real only ah .

btw , sabira's face like pelesit .

lol !

muke masai ,

mate juling ,

and baju koyak .

obit sia sabina !

days had been great .

im loving my life to the fullest with dearest who is always there for me even though sometimes he's sucks .

so , yea ,

dear bought for me a big helllo kitty soft toy .

haiya ..

few weeks ago its a big bear .

mcm2 lah boyfriend ni .

but the thing that i think most is that ,

we quarrelled nearly everyday ,

but he still bought for me those kind of stuffs .

aku kdg2 tk fhm ah dgn prangai kau cik abg .

bile prangai da mcm sial , sial nk mampos .

bile da baik , baik nk mampos .

kla , thats it .

tmr school .

got PE .

im so bloody smangat tu PE nowdays .

thanks to ayu for not buih-ing me again and again like the previous term .

chiows .

2009-07-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

updated pics !

k bye !

dont know what to type .

its just SCHOOL SUX !

chiows people !

5th month !

2009-07-13T04:53:00.000-07:00

happy 5 months babyboy .

im loving you more each day .

and the only thing that i hope from you is that ,

please change yourself .

your anger , your egoness ..

thats what i was hoping from you since the past 4 months .

i love you so much .

beach

2009-07-11T00:09:00.000-07:00

sometimes u sucks .

but no matter what , i love you .
never fail to make me cry .

i dont care if i shed blood tears just because of you ,

coz im deeply in love with you .

getting ready to work .

last night meet boyfriend ,

slept at the beach .

its been 5 days we didnt meet .

so , you can imagine how much i miss you , boyfriend .

i love spending my days and nights with you .

i feel secured having you by my side .

i love you so much .

2 more days babyboy !

2009-07-07T04:15:00.000-07:00

the cuzins , the siblings , the nephews and the nieces .

look at how sweet we are :)
abg li's house in jb .
nice right the swimmng pool ..
didnt get the chance to swim on sunday coz its raining badly .
but its okay ,
there's always another day :D

at dad's friends' place .
as usual , its a wedding ler ..

look at that muscles .

hahah !

sapau tk aku ??

lol !

a pic by sabira .

they rocks my seluardalam man !

i just wanna thnks to the 3 of u coz without u ,

i wont have any friend maybe ,

coz ya , u know right .

thnks for making my days people even though i just know u all last year .

but its fun having the 3 of u with me .

pictas .. pictas ..

look at that one-eyed girl .

hee ..

so , today i school was fun even though its tiring .

went to the comp lab for 3 periods .

camwhoring ..

laughing ..

its fun yea !

and yesterday , went to JB with boyfriend .

walau ! i tell u ah better not go on a public bus .

sucks man .

it was so confusing till i quarrelled with him .

that would my 1st and the last time taking on a SBS bus .

and yea , boyfriend bought some stuffs yesterday .

a big bear , barbel , perfume and some i cant remember .

we thought of buying a couple ring but i said nvm lah just wait for our 6th month .

its half past a year .

so , yea ,

i love spending time with him even though sometimes we quarrel ,

but i just love it .

6 more days baybeh !

chiowz !

2009-07-03T02:44:00.000-07:00

hey people !

atlast its friday !!

omg , i was just waiting for fridays man !

get to meet boyfriend , spend time at the beach ..

and we gonna get high tonite :)

i love it !

ltr gonna bring my baby hamsters along to the beach .

haiya !

boyfriend.. boyfriend ..

u ah ..

so , yea ..

coursework done !

atlast !

k tats all .

bye !

2009-07-02T07:47:00.000-07:00

wohoo ! atlast its friday tmr !

fucking school !

atlast i get to spend my time at night wif boyfriend .

im tiredlah plz ..

advance n-level can ??

k bye !

LKJJJJJJJ

2009-06-29T02:30:00.000-07:00

no words can ever describe how much i love you .
Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start.

si becok !

damn noisy .

my house is like a pet house man .

there's hamsters , merbok bird , parrot and a turtle .

hahah !

i love it !

today i didnt go to school coz i slept at boyfriend's house because before that we was setteling our probs .

and in the morning , confident want to wake up a 5.45am ,

but when i woke up ,

its 6.21am .

so , thats it .

its late already !

so yea , tats it .

just rotting at home .

and seriously ,

I HATE SCHOOL TO THE CORE !

I WOULD RATHER STAY AT HOME DOING NOTHING MAN !

I CANT WAIT FOR N-LEVEL ENDS !

I WANNA WORK , SAVE MONEY , BRING DAD FOR A HOLIDAY !
HAIYA !

2009-06-25T08:14:00.000-07:00

with fito
semangat fishing .
mcm fhm eh sabina .

wif fit and atika .

my laughing machines .

i love you both .

niwaes , this pics was taken on last 2 weeks .

just stole it from fit's blog .

hee ..

sorry ye joyah !

had fun with those people when boyfriend , beel , iza came .

love you people !

im tired of fighting with you everyday .

why isit i will always be the on eto give in even though im not in the wrong ??

im tired of giving in to u too much .

its unfair !

plz ..

im not strong to go through all this .

be fair to me plz .

haiz .

2009-06-23T06:25:00.000-07:00

my little babyboy :)

getting ready to wedding .

guess who is this ???

heheheh !

my shadow .

kinda cool huh ! :P

boyfriend getting ready to work .

muke semangat eh kambeng .

...........

blurrr ..

blurrr 2 ...

........

wif the bloody nagger !

i hate you most of the time .

in the car .

3 weeks of holidays has passed .

so fast ah .

next week may or may not have school due to the H1N1 .

isnt that fun ??

come on people vote for it ! :)

for last week , i seriously hate sabira to the core .

she just sux !

a bloody stupid nagger who thinks that im still a small little girl that still plays at the playground .

fcuk u lah !

please lah dont treat me like one .

im 17 already okay !

I got my own life and my own future and please dont nag as if like you realy care .

u and ur 2nd brother ,

are the same .

i prefer hirsham sia , seriously .

he's much2 more better than the both of you .

now , bout boyfriend ,

as usual quarrelling all the way for such a stupid thing .

please lah boyfriend ,

i want you to change .

stop being over-ego lah .

im tired , seriously .

but im just being strong coz i know that one day you would change to a new you .

god-willing ..

and no matter what ,

i love you !

2009-06-17T01:02:00.000-07:00

firstly , thnx bf for buying me this lovely babies for our 4monthsary .

i love you .

i really love our baby hamsters .

and so ,

here are the babyboy ad babygirl .

sleeping in their cute little home .

this was one of our latest pic .

the 1st one .
2nd ..
and the 3rd one .
this was taken last 2 days .
step hot .
heh !
im growing fatter man .
haiya !
the 3 lovely babies .
sania , fadil and fadli .
didi , me and our babies .

there you go .

close-up of their faces .

im gonna take care of both of you till you get your own babies to take care of aites .

i love you babies .

lalalala ..

2009-06-07T18:23:00.000-07:00

i've been tired these few days .

lack of sleeping .

and my eyebags are growing .

let me summarise on what's happening from friday to sunday .

friday ,

went camping and fishing at changi with dearest fitri , atika , iza , nabeel , taufik , his gf .

it was fun .

but the sad thing is that , fitri and atika didnt overnight .

haiz ..

maybe the next one okay gals .

on saturday ,

i was at home the whole day .

i gets irritated with bro .

i hate the way he is now .

mcm nk step mane nye besar gitu .

merepek siak .

on sunday ,

went to the studio .

as usual , dad and sis karaoke till 8:15pm .

then headed straight to wodlands cause its the twins 3rd birthday .

that's all .

i've not been attending school throughout last week and including today to catch up for my f&n coursework .

im too lazy to go to school .

and im gonna do it at home :)

&& tmr im getting my hamsters !!!!!!!!!
oh my god !!

i cant wait man !!!

k chiaossss !

2009-06-03T22:56:00.000-07:00

im tired of fightings and argumets for such a small thing .

im seriously tired .

sometimes i just feel like giving up on you .

but i cant , its hard .

really hard.

cause we've been together for like 4months in 10 days time .

and to count and recall back 4 months isnt short huh .

and we are not the type tat seldom meets but we always meet .

and all the mmories we had was there .

how am i to forget all those memories just like that ??!

please , stop doing this to me .

honestly , u really puttin me under pressure my dear .

i dont deny that .

but no matter what ,

i love you baby .

we'll go through all the ups and downs together ,

and never will let it go just like that .

i hope with all the promises that we made together ,

we'll be stronger to go through all this .

2009-06-01T19:20:00.000-07:00

life has been great except for one bloody bdk taik who continuosly spam my tagboard with all kinds of bloody stupid comment .

prangai jgn mcm adek2 lah sia .

aku tk cari psl dgn kau ,

kau nk kecoh2 ape hal ??

get a life dammit !

fuckingassholenabeycibaikaninakanasaipundekmairek sume kau ah sial !

i've been sleeping at changi beach these days .

it was nice , seriously .

the atmosphere , the waves , aeroplanes , boats and ships .

its just so wonderful !

i love babyboy so much .

i miss my gals so much man !

iza , ida , atika , fitri , aini , nysa ..

omg ...

when are we meeting ....

2009-05-22T20:57:00.000-07:00

we just loves babies .

baby , baby , baby .

sania eyes steaming .

lol !

look at her face .

cutiepie .

me n baby sania .

sister and sania .

auntie and cuzin .daddy and baby sania .

my living room .

tv room after tidy up .

actually, im a bit too late to upload those pics above .

yalah , im bz with exams and all .

no time to update .

and all those pics above was taken on last sunday .

so , yea today i was so damn busy helping dad with cooking .

too much work to do .

and i didnt get enough sleep coz last night i went fishing with dearest ,

reache his home at 3+am ,

and i didnt get to sleep easily coz got this fat cat kept coming in the house .

and i swear , the cat is sooooo cute ..

soo fluffy ..

one day , im gonna take his pic k .

cute giler sia !

me and dearest is doing great .

very rare of quarelling .

and yea , i hope it will continue like this .

i love you sweetheart .

and every second , evry minute , every hour ,

i miss you !

and lastly , thats my baby looky and tooky .

cute as ever and smell forever .

heee ..

sorry babies .

ilysm !

2009-05-16T06:29:00.000-07:00

today was grat even though i didnt even step out of the house .

i reached home at 11am from dearest house .

last night was fun !

from 12:30am to 4am we slack at the beach .

mau tangkap romantic siket . *_*

then headed to his house and sleep for like 3-4 hours only .

and till now, i havent repay my sleep back .

so now , dad is cooking bonesteak for tmr , yeay !

and im waiting for 11pm , to call dearest .

k bye !

And to farhana , im sorry lmbt siket .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

MAY YOU SUCCESS IN EVERYTHING U DO .

ATLAST PER DA 17 ??!

LOL !

3 MONTHS BABYBOY !

2009-05-13T03:31:00.000-07:00

firstly , happy 3 months to us baybeh !

even though today is our 3rd month ,

u still make me cry by finding fault with me .

im tired lah !

but whatever it is , i love you !

no words can ever describes how much i love you .

so , ya .

after school ,

i went sheng shiong with sis to buy my f&n ingredients .

just wanna practice at home .

to be prepared .

n yea ,

thats the fruit spa smoothies made by me :D

sedap di ???

heh !

close-up for my smoothie .

sorry , the cup is a bit spoil yea .

my strawberry buttermilk pancake .
not so attractive huh ?!
need to be improve .

and my mushroom omelette that has been eaten by my sister .
hmm ..
yea , thats all for today people !
&& tmr is maths paper 2 !!!
FCUK !

my babylove !

2009-05-04T07:15:00.000-07:00

today was fun !
yea !
went out wif dearest watched movie at ehub! , "JANGAN TEGUR" .
the movie was hmm .. okay2 lah ..
the starting is the scariest part ah ..
then after that print out our pics from phone :)
then headed to dearest home coz he's working at 6 .
so , yea .
thats all for today folks !
& i love you babyboy :D

2009-04-30T01:00:00.000-07:00

my naughty boy !

cheeky boy !

thats about me and bf .

quarrelled every night without fail ,

and turn out to be okay when we meets .

haiyo ..

i just cant believe that we gonna hit 3 months in how many days time ,

with those bloody conflicts that we had .

hmmm ...

no matter what ,

i love you .

and to my darling cuzin shasya ,

congrats ya !

hope you last long with mr H .

i miss you cuzzin !

and i just love you !

meet up soon aites !

2009-04-22T01:53:00.000-07:00

hello hello people !

im kinda bored now .

guess wad people ??

i just hate school so much !!!

i cant wait for graduation .

school just sucks to the core without my loved ones .

i just miss you gals .

bout dearest ..

yea , i bought him this necklace which was engraved with his and my name for his birthday .

as usual , we'll always quarrel .

its like everyday without fail .

i just hate arguments !

people , lets have another reunion !

i miss all of you !

2009-04-15T03:05:00.000-07:00

hey people !

its been a very very ong time since i last updated my blog .

im was just so damn busy with my f&n coursework .

and its really tiring man .

so yea ,

school was tiring as usual with the hot weather which i cant really take it .

and lastly , nothing much about me n dearest .

we've just reached our 2nd month on monday .

and i just love you endlessly babyboy .

i hope there will be no more quarrelling between us .

im tired, seriously .

and and !

this sat is dearest bday .

i cant wait to celebrate it with u .

i love you .

favor lah !

2009-03-27T23:38:00.000-07:00

i dont know what's wrong wif dad these days .

he have been scolding me for nothing .

sis was the one whom always wakes up late ,

but he spout out all his anger towards me .

wat the hell sia !

im so fucking innocent here ,

and he let out everything to me !

tat's so bloody unfair !

2009-03-21T01:52:00.000-07:00

i've never had a relationship with someone like this before , seriously .

with the everyday arguments we had for such a small thing , and it really sucks .

seriously , it sucks to the core !

im always the one to be blame .

and u even asked me to change .

then how bout u ?

with ur hot-temperedness ?

always makes things worse ??

u dont have to change isnt it ???

u're always the right one ..

GUYS ARE JUST EGOS !

fuck !

my love story

2009-03-17T00:00:00.000-07:00

the guy whom i quarrel most ,

whom i spent my time most ,

and the guy whom i love most .

u're my everything .

my double-chin soo tk perlu .
fuck sia this double chin !
look at the nostrils !

i dont mind spending my whole life with you .

look at his sleepy face .

syok sendiri .

heheh .

without him noticing :)

overnight wif dearest at cv .

quite fun even though he kept falling asleep .

so , yea .

thats it .

nothing much .

tmr got chemistry for 3 hours .

wtf !

2009-03-15T19:15:00.000-07:00

while waiting for iza and maine .
when we met ..
all the fun is there .

my lovely gals .

my hot gal .

step hot .

us again .

my saturday was fun . spending with my lovely ones .

maine , iza , ida , aini , atika and lastly mr nabeel was there too at aini's chalet .

as usual , so much laughing .

&& ya , i quarrel with bf again just because im late to see him .

haiz ..

when i reached changi , it was already 11:15 pm .

so , i just wait for him to take his shower and then off to my place .

reached home ,

my bloody sister and jasmine scared me by locking the door at the 1st place .

and i went down to tell bf .

and when i msged sis ,

she said the door wasnt even locked ,

so , i went up again ,

but this time wif bf coz im scared :P

and idiot !

these 2 bloody gals just pranked me !

cb !

Im soo bloody shocked man !

..........

and on that night me , bf , sis and jasmine taunt together .

it was so much fun !

that was my saturday .

those pics above was taken on friday .

we taunt nea my place .

and that was our very 1st month together .

HAPPY 1 MONTH BAYBEH !

my babyboy .

lovely schoolmates .

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MY DARLING CUZIN !

I LOVE YOU !

and some random pics above from last week .

hey , its holiday baybeh !

wohoo !

i loike !

i hate school , seriously !

2009-03-07T04:19:00.000-08:00

at the playground wif jasmine .

sleepyhead boy !
............

bloody terkangkang .

.......

.........

look at that sleepy face of his .

.........

........

.............

me n my darling sossymei .

in the bus .

my beloved gal frens .

syok sendiri .

me n my beloved classmates .

okay , thats all .

random pics for this week have been uploaded .
quite a number huh .

tired siol .

so , today will be going for a wedding which i didnt even know where .

and after to kak aisah's house !!

wohoo !

i just miss those people there !

especially my cuzzins , niece and nephews .

i cant wait !!!

tats all !

gdbye !

2009-02-27T18:02:00.000-08:00

abuboy and sabina .
us again .

the 3 of us .

love u both !

my double-chin stop it sia !

dearest plaing wif wahid .

n yea , wahid is his name .

lol !

3 of us again .

gembire eh tgk kucing .

hey peeps !

im having menses sia .

so ....

eww !

i dont like man .

feels like shitting all the way .

im too bored coz sis is still snoring .

haiya .

nobody wanna entertain me :(

today , ayu is making her birthday party at home .

sorry ayu , i cant come .

its not that i dont want to ,

but my dad have already make a plan .

so sorry .

n thats all people !

i love you my abuboy !

im sorry for hurting you .

2009-02-27T00:52:00.000-08:00

he enjoys making all kinds of faces .

thats my naughty boy !

me and my didi sabera :)

so , yea .

pictures of me n my beloved people !

school is tiring nowdays .

with the hot weather .

haiya .

i've been perspiring really badly .

and yea ,

life has been great .

with dearest and friends .

i just love all u people who have really made my day .

bubbye !

2009-02-19T23:36:00.000-08:00

and thats my abuboy people !
and some of my face sux !
more pics of us coming up !
ily !

2009-02-18T06:49:00.000-08:00

school sux !
i just feel like dropping out man !
i just hate school !
and the weather these few days was like , OMG !!!
i've been sweating all the way man !
binget .. binget ..

about love life ,
i've been great wif dearest .
and i guess he's my Mr Right !
i guess so .
i've been going to changi village these whole 3 days just to see him .
luckily ,
there's a straight bus from my house .
and baby ,
i love you so much !
i hope what u've said to me is the truth .
and i hope u meant it what u've said to me .
i love you so much !
i just love spending my time with you :P

2009-02-16T05:54:00.000-08:00

so , yea ..

its over between me and him .

i ask for the break up just now .

tmr gonna be our 7th months ,

but im sorry to do this .

i cant wait any longer .

im tired of lies for the whole 6months plus .

thanks for everything .

and now ,

i gonna move on with my lfe .

finding someone that's HONEST .

and yea ,

maybe i've found one .

hee :)

2009-02-13T04:26:00.000-08:00

i cant deny that spending my time wif those people in the pics was seriously fun !
i just love all of them .
even though mos of you are out of btss ,
u still regard us as per normal .
sometimes i think that ,
spending time wif frens is better than spending time wif lovers .
hahas !
k peeps .
tats all .
&&
some of my pic sux !
heh !

2009-02-12T08:44:00.000-08:00

heylo people !

life wasnt that great these few days .

i've been stressing out myself with studies , love lifes and friends .

and btw ,

yesterday was great !

it's siti's bday .

and again i organise the surprise party for her .

me , ida , iza , maine , atika , zahrah , aini really surprised her .

we went under her blk ,

and i kept contacting her sis .

and we planned everything .

it was fun , really !

actually there are pics .

but i havent receive from ida yet .

maybe tmr yea ..

and today i'll be going to changi wif frens .

gonna have so much fun there !

takecare people !

2009-02-11T09:10:00.000-08:00

muke aku sumpah merepek !

us :) HAPPY BDAY TO ME ! :p

ily didi :)

my birthday celebration was great .

he really make my day .

1st , we went for bowling at ehub!

and swear that im so fcuking shy wif him .

heee ..

paisey ler ..

then to kbox .

karaoke !!

hahah !

more paisey sia at 1st .

then yea ,

i sang much too ..

and then proceed to central ,

he bought a cake for me to celebrate wif sis ,

and a box of ...

so sweeet of you ..

u r the 1st guy whom i celebrate with on my big day ..

thanks for everything ..

and im sorry for all the stupid things that i did to you .

pls forgive me ..

im sorry for making you cry ,

for hurting you deeply and for making bloody attitude to you .

SORRY !

and for my lovely frens and cousins who wished me ..

A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU !

especially shasya ,

yea baybeh , 1 more month .

lol !

ily cuzzy !

huda , nisa , aini , kak ira , nana , atika and lots more ..

and ayu , aisah and maine ,

thanks for the lovely present baby !

THANKS !

I LOVE YOU ALL !

2009-02-03T02:15:00.000-08:00

i miss u people badly .

i cant wait for 13th feb !

yeah !

while webcamm-ing with either ida or aini cant recall .

hehe !

make lots of shitfaces !

lol !

sabina & sabira

together we look at te laptop .
hahah !

yoyo people !
i cant wait for weekend ,
coz i wanna sleep the whole day ..
im geting sleepier and sleepier each day ..
cant take it sia ..
and i think i wanna have a time-out wif bf .
coz of some reasons .
not tat we quarrelled or wat ..
it's something else ..
haiz ....

2009-02-02T07:52:00.000-08:00

i just dont know why these few days ,

many of my frens pick a fight wif me .

please la ...

im tired of all this lah .

plz be maturedlah for once .

kau igtkan kau pukol aku tk saket pe ??

siallah ..

mak bapak aku pon tk pukol aku tu mcm ah sia .

kau igtkan aku adek2 kau pe ,

kau nk pukol aku tu mcm .

org stakat tumbok siket satu kali ,

kau nk lebih2 .

dont be over-reaactinglah .

plzlah .

bey skrg kau nk buat muke kat aku .

and this are your true colors la eh .

you hit me badly ,

and what ??

and i need to say sorry to you ??

sorry ,

im not that type of person that imediately jumps to conclusion as if im the wrong one and i need to apologise .

if im the wrong one ,

i'll make the first move to ask for forgiveness ,

and i'll not drag things up .

my type is ,

i'll let that particular person to think who started it first .

and you , yourself will come to me and apologise .

i dont like to drag things up .

and ya ,

let me repeat this ,

im tired of all this fightings , quarrellings , misunderstandings and what so ever ..

im tired ..

thats about today .

life has ben sux these days .
im feeling so tired .

im always having a very bad flu when i woke up from my sleep .

and it's soo fucking irritating .

haiyo ..

i skipped both of my remedial lessons .

tmr then i'll be going for my maths remedial .

I HATE REMEDIALS !

thats all bout school .

hey ,

9 more days baybeh !

wohoo !

i cant wait .

i really cant .

im gonna be 17 soon .

see how fast time flies .

it seems like just last month i just stepped to my 16 years of age .

hahah !

and in 9 days time to 17 .

but im really excited for next year baybeh !

its a legal year !!

and about love ,

he's not back yet .

he'll be coming back tmr morning .

i miss him but not that muchlah coz yestrday just meet what .

and and 15 days to our 7th monthsary baybeh ,

insya'allah .

i love you soo much sweetheart .

you ,

my dad ,

my mom ,

my sis ,

my bros ,

my friends ,

are my everything .

especially mom ,

i missed you so much .

how i wish if u were just here beside me .

u will kiss me and hug me like you would do .

im not a good daughter .

im always makes dad angry .

i know you're disappointed with me mom .

i know .

i always wish u were when i was sick .

when im having fever ,

u will always take the small tower and soaked it the tub of cold waters and put it on my foehead .

i miss you so much .

without you ,

i feel that my life is meaningless .

i feel like my friends are going away from me .

how i wish i could follow you go up the sky .

and im not gonna overcome this kind of probs again .

how i wish mom .

now , i've got no one to do that to me :'(

and miss both of my bros .

hirsham ,

plz come back .

zahid ,

come back soon .

i love you people so much !

2009-02-01T07:03:00.000-08:00

remedials will be starting this week !
fuck sia !
im tired !
tired of school !
i just hate school soo much !

i met dear for awhile just now ,
coz tmr he'll be going to batam ..
got some job to do there .
will be back on tues .

thats all .
and its february already !
yeah !

2009-01-29T02:40:00.000-08:00

hey people !
january gonna end soon !

wohoo !

i cant wait to be 17 ..

and especially 18 nxt year !!

and im gonna be legal for everything !!

i just cant wait !!

plz make it fast .....

so , nothing much ..

met dear yesterday ..

had so much fun ...

and maybe meeting him at night for awhile after i meet atika at central ..

i just love you sweetheart ..

*170708*

2009-01-27T06:02:00.000-08:00

those pics below were taken during school days ..

i just got those pics from ayu ..

love you gals !

this pic is a bit blurr ...

and those pics below was taken last night during our night picnic at eastcoast park ...

it was quite fun ..

got to spend time wif my lovely cuzins ..

in an hour time ,

moms' side came ..

i just miz my cuzins !

especially syasya and the babies !

love u peeps !

and yesterday ,

i got to meet dear ..

went for a breakfast ..

lepak2 as usual ...

and back to home ..

i just love you soo much ..

these poem is for you my dear ..

I love the wayy you look at me,

The way you hold me in your arms.

Your crooked smile and beautiful face,

lets me know your never to far.

So tonight when I close my eyes,

I'll be dreaming of you.

Wrapping each memory of you sercurely around my heart.

Hold me close and don't ever back out.

Forever and ever babe has never had such a meaning until I found a place in your heart.

I love you more than words can express, I need you like a heart needs a beat.

Without you my life would never be the same.

So remember this when your lips touch mine that you will have me for the end of time.

2009-01-25T06:57:00.000-08:00

had so much fun on friday night ..

had a reunion wif those peeps ..

i just love u people to the core ..

too enjoyed with all of you ,

i reached home at 12:30am ..

i tooka shower and off to bed !

i just love friday !

below , are some pics that were taken on that day ..

thats it !

and and , we were planning for another reunion on 13th feb ..

we're going for a picnic .

who wants to come ,

come lah k ..

who dont want ,

thats ur problem !

atleast i've type it here ..

so , i guessed u'll be the 3rd person to know about these ..

so , dont say another fuck up things again okay ..

and i know u're not coming ..

and i dont need u aniway ..

bye !

2009-01-24T06:19:00.000-08:00

IM FUCKING DISAPPOINTED WIF YOU !!!!!!

THNX FOR KEEPING ME WAITING LIKE A STUPID GAL , FOR UR CALLS OR MSG ALL THE TIME !
THANK YOU VERY MUCH !!!

U'RE REALLY TOO MUCH THIS TIME !

U'RE MAKING ME TO HATE YOU !

2009-01-22T09:07:00.000-08:00

eh favor lah sia ....

jgn prangai bole tk ......

da 2 kali kau bobal taik dgn aku ..

cb ah kau !

nak ckp aku lupe kwn konon ...

look at urself firstla ..

kau da kuar skola ,

kau ade contact aku per ??

buto ah ! sume nk slhkan aku !

lainkali kalau nk bobal fikir dulu la sial !

jgn smbrg shoot !

n u know what ???

U JUST SOUND LIKE ONE FUCKING IMMATURE GAL !

NOT UNDERSTANDING AT ALL !

AKU TAK HERAN AH HILANG KWN MCM KAU !

BUTO !

BLOODY ATTITUDE !

N , SERIOUSLY BOTH CONFLICTS THAT HAPPENS BETWEEN US ,

WASNT EVEN MY FAULT !

U'RE THE ONE WHO LOOK FIND FAULT !

KAU NK LUPE AKU ??

LUPE AH !

AKU TKDE HERAN LA !

2009-01-16T11:59:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 6 MONTHS DARL !

i really cant believ that we had gone tis far .

its already half a year .

hmm ...

i just hope that we'll always stay strong like this ..

ily !

2009-01-15T05:15:00.000-08:00

omg !!!

cheese fries !!!!!!!!

im craving for this !

heheh !

mcm manelah aku tk gemok mcm babi ...

hee ..

didnt go to sch today ...

but i went for my prep exam ...

after the paper , i went to maine's house ..

as usual , the merepekness are always there ..

heheh !

ily maine !

so , nothing much today ..

just waiting for january to end ..

heheh !

and and ,

2 more days baybeh !

2009-01-12T08:27:00.000-08:00

hellow gang !

amcm ??

ade baek tk ??

saye baek2 je ..

cume kan ....

PREP EXAM DA START !!

everyday go home late sia tis week ...

soooo bloody tiring man ...

today , the o's level result is out ..

hmm ..

so , huda , jgn give up k ..

and today , im not meeting dear ..

sad :(

tmr , maths paper 1 ..

fcuk !

kla bye !

skool just sux !

2009-01-10T04:46:00.000-08:00

hey peeps !
life has been great recently..
just love it !
except for school ,
i just hate school to the max sia !
n tis coming monday ,
its the starting of prep exam ..
wth !
haiyo ...
boring sey ..
everyday home late ..
soo tiring ..

so, ya ,
life has been great wif dear ..
but im just feeling guilty towards him coz i dropped the phone he boght for me for like 3 times ..
and there's even a crack at the bottom of the phone ..
im soo sori .. :(

and btw , just now in the morning ,
an indo woman calle my hp ..
and talked bout bro ...
haiya ..
he always gets into trouble man !
i really dont know wat to do bro ..
im still young , '
i dont know how to help to gt out of that place ..
im sori ..
dad has been giving up on u ...
i think the best person to tell bout tis matter is aunt nir ..
haiz ...

7 days to 6th months kambeng :)
ily ..

2008-12-27T05:25:00.000-08:00

random pics that were taken during our hoiliday at tanjung pinang n other places ..

its been 2 weeks i didnt update my blog .

so , as usual i'll summarise everything by the date .

20th dec
leave house at 12:30pm and headed to tanah merah ferry terminal .

meet dad's fren .

n board the ferry at 1:30pm .

its a 2 hours journey .

and we reached tere at 3:30pm sharp .

we headed to panorama hotel .

ate our lunch at the masakan padang restoran .

n the food are delicious !

blablabla ...

at night went for shopping as usual ..

n i had a very terrible flu ..

and i swear it was so fcuking irritating !

21st dec

as usual ..

wake up ,

had breakfast at the hotel ..

wait for dad's fren n check out .

and so , we moved to another hotel ..

whch is much much better than the previous one ..

it's so grand !

we took a deluxe room ..

i just love it man !

me n sis went for a swimming ..

blablabla ..

n at nite as usual ,

had our dinner wif dad's fren ,

n went for some shopping ..

n off back to hotel ..

n i had a very nice nap that nite ..

23rd dec

check out ..

did our last shopping ..

bought 2 types of jeans ..

and a pair of sport shoe at lois sport .

reached ferry terminal at 11:25am ..

blablabla ..

had a nice nap in the ferry ..

n we reached spore at around 2:3o (spore time) ..

n home sweet home !

2008-12-19T06:36:00.000-08:00

hey peeps !
school reopens in 2 weeks time .
omg , im not ready yet sia !
and about someone ,
i hope things wont repeat again between us .
i just dont like if frens quarrel for just a small little thing .
and now , let bygones be bygones aites .
just now , ate zinger for dinner !
wohoo ! i just love it man !
n now , im watching angin menderu .
quite a nice show .
and im also waiting for dear to call me .
we are going out later !
hee ...
&& tmr i'll be going off to tanjung pinang !!!
tanjung pinang here i comes !!
im gonna pack my stuffs when i get back from meeting dearest .
i cant wait !!!
ohkay peeps , gdbye ! takecare dols ! :)

2008-12-18T01:34:00.000-08:00

firstly , to maine ,

im proud of u n hope that u really wanna take o's next year .

to siti n fit ,

ermm ..

up to u both to make ur choices .

and to someone ,

favor lah , kau jgn ego dgn aku bley tk ??

prangai sial !

aku da baek2 nk mintak maaf even though bkn aku yg carik psl ,

kau expect aku dtg kat kau untok mintak maaf .

aku bkn baruah kaulah eh !

kau yg pandai2 carik psl dgn aku ,

bey kau expect aku berlutot kat kau ??!

IM NOT UR DOG !!

prangai jgn jadi mcm minahrep bley tak ???!

kau igtkan aku suke peh gado dgn kwn aku sendiri ??!

since kau nak ikot prangai ego kau ,

tu kaunye psllah eh !

kau peh suardalam !

one last thing ,

IM NOT UR BLOODY DOG TO KNEEL AT U AND ASK FOR FORGIVENESS !

2008-12-16T00:15:00.000-08:00

hey peeps !

life has been great lately .

especially wif dear .

i think im loving him more each day .

i dont know why .

hmm ..

i think after all that happens , maybe ..

and yea , i really cant wait for tanjung pinang !

i hope its not cancel dad .

and i dont want to go to malacca for god's sake .

jelak tau !

and and i've been missing lots of peeps now .

especially , huda , dalila , aini , khairaiah and lots more .

and OMG !

school's starting back in 2-3 weeks time !

wtf !

im not ready for school yet sia !

i havent even bought my school books and uniforms .

wth !

i just hate school to the core !

and btw , tmr is our 5th month sweetheart !

woaahh ..

i just cant believe that we could go this far ..

im loving u endlessly .

2008-12-13T08:23:00.000-08:00

yesterday i had so much fun wif ida and didi (ridiana) ..

at 1st we planned to go to escape theme park ,

it was cancelled coz we scared if it rains ,

but it doesnt even rain ..

haiya !

then we headed to chaichee cc ,

tot of going for karaoke ,

but its fully booked !

haiya !

then planned to play pool at katong .

so ,we took 15 and stopped at parkways' bus-stop ,

then walked through roxy square to reached at the pools' place .

but pantat betol !

the place have been closed down oreadi !!!

what a bad day !

and lastly ,

we planned to go eastcoast to rent bicycle ,

and atlast we realy got something to do to excites us ..

atlast people .

atlast ..

took quite a no. of shots wif hidayah and ridiana ..

just love it !

obviously ,

not ready .

we are ready this time .

me and ridiana :)
me and ida .
aww .. so sweet ...
mcm lesb sia !

a picture of us .
us again .

wif ida again .

us again .

again .

at bedok jetty .

we asked a chinese boy to take for us a snap .

thank you chinese boy ! :)

i look like a giant sia !

lol !

I HAD SO MUCH FUN WIF U GALS YESTERDAY :)

so, after returning the bicycle to the shop ,

we gonna seperate .

ida meeting shahril ,

and didi will be meeting faiz ..

but luckily didi will be taking 15 ,

so , i walked wif her and faiz ..

but i took 31 coz im meeting jasmine at tamp ..

its like a halfnhour journey frm marineparade to tamp inter ..

and and i didnt eat frm morning till at night yesterday ..

just feel like fainting ..

reached tamp ,

i waited for jasmine at the small mac,

waited for like 10mins like that .

then we sit2 1st at the smallmac .

then buy bread wif magarine and kaya ,

and headed to a blk opp the library while waiting for bf call .

around halfnhour time ,

bf called ,

he said he's reaching ..

when he reached ,

we sent jasmine home 1st coz she have to accompany her sister to somewhere ..

then me n bf as usual went to east coast ..

best sia ..

i got to bully bf ..

heheh !

bite here , bite there , bite2 everywhere ! :)

then we called sis at around 1+am ,

and asked whether she wanna eat or not and we ask her to get ready ,

we fetched her ..

and then headed to jalan kayu ..

ate a very expensive prata ..

fuck sia the place !

can u imagine just a piece of cheese prata costs $2.70 ??

bloody expensive right ....

haiyo ...

singapore...singapore...

then we went to esso ,

and bought ice-creams ..

eat , eat , eat ,

then went home ..

thats all !

4 more days sweetheart !

im not gonna lose u again baby .

2008-12-11T00:30:00.000-08:00

just pictures of me and some wif my jasmine .

so , i didnt blog for the last 2 days ..

i've to start frm the 9th - 11th dec which was today ..

9th dec

the bad day of my life .

i meet dear wif jasmine ,

just chilling as usual ,

but seriously i got no mood .

no mood as in im lazy to entertain bf .

so , its like we didnt talk much .

and on that ,

i didnt bring my hp along .

coz im scared if suddenly (E) msg or call me when im wif soni .

and for that whole night ,

soni was wondering why i didnt bring my hp along .

and that was my 1st time i left my hp at home when i meet him .

........

after a few hours chilling together ,

we send min home coz the next day she's working .

and then we headed to eastcoast park .

we talk , talk , talk .......

and he stills wondering ....

its like that day wasnt a good day for us .

so , in awhile more he send me home .

we r not as before .

he just send me home like that ,

we a kiss on my cheeks , eyes , forehead , nose ...

and even a hug ..

and im the cause for this ..

then at night ,'

he called me ,

he asked me to be honest to him why im like that .

so , i told him the truth .

i told him that ,

for the whole 4months we've been together ,

i still cant forget (E) ,

its real hard for me .

i just dont know why ..

he was shocked ,

and he said ,

that means all tis while i didnt love him ,

im using him ,

taking advantage of him and he was damn dissapointed wif me ,

he just cant believe it .

and i told him just give me sometime to think bout this ,

its not the matter of choosing which one that i wanted to be wif ,

its just to sort my mind out ,

whether should we continue or just split bcoz of the lost of love towards him .

i know u're damn heartbroken on that day .

but im soo sorry .

i dont want to lie to my own feelings and to u .

he even think of a solution ,

and that is to break up .

then i told him ,

breaking up is not the best solution .

the thing is that ,

u just have to give me sometime to think .

so , ya ,

he let me think through and i need to give him the answer the nxt day .

i slept at 6am on that day .

im just too confused wif myself ..

haiz ...

and the next day ..........

10th dec

he called me ,

and asked for the ans .

i still cant ans ,

i just kept mummed ..

then that afternoon ,

he wanna meet me for awhile .

when we've met ,

the 1st thing that he did was kissing me n hugging me .

hmm ..

its weird huh .

then blablabla ...

as usual ..

then at night we meet again ,

but before that ,

iza came to my house .

imy gal !

then she wats me tell me what happened and all ..

so , i told her everything ..

blablabla ..

one thing that i like bout iza ,

i just love the way she gives people an opinion .

she's just the best !

after i think through it ,

what she have said is true .

and on that moment i feel like hugging bf .

so , at night meet dear wif iza .

we send iza home .

then after that ,

bought some drinks and food and headed to eastcoast .

bf was telling me story about what ..

i cant remember ..

what i can do is just stare at his face and pretend to listen to it .

and and and suddenly ,

surprisingly ,

tis was what sabina did ,

she hugged him tightly ,

she said she miss him so much ,

tears rolling down her cheeks ,

and she even said to him that she's feeling guilty .

omg !

surprisingly eh sabina .

this was like the 1st time i did this to someone .

and i guess he's the MR RIGHT for me .

i just love u so much my dearest kambeng

dear , 6 more days to our 5th month .

and i cant wait for that .

so fast time flies by .

i just cant believe that we're heading to our 5th month .

let me see what surprise u gonna give me on that day .

im nervous for the surprise !

lol !

i love you !

2008-12-08T11:02:00.000-08:00

its fading away bits by bits ..

i dont know why ..

i dont want to hurt u in any ways ..

haiz ..

plz help me ...

give me an opinion ..

i dont want to lie to u , i dont want to hide wif my feelings ..

ARGH !!!!!!!!