and again .has been soo long i didnt update my blog .
just too tired lah .
omg !
just cant believe it tmr is hari raya !
isnt tat fast ??!
but i just dont feel it coz i cant even fast for the whole month due to the continuosly menses .
im tired of this menses .
it was since the past 2-3 months .
everyday i've got to change it even though it is just a little .
i dont know what is happening to me .
i just wanna know my sickess to this .
i've got to wait till 14 october to go for my next appoinment .
it's still quite long .
haiz ..
my last papers will be starting in 2 weeks time .
and i just cant wait for school to end .
i wanna work .
i dont want to continue my studies .
i dont want to waste dads' money for my studies cause im not even interested in studies now .
i just want to work , give dad money , save for needs ..
tats all i want after my N's .
and tis year hari raya gonna be the same for the past 4 years .
mom is not here with us again .
mom , i guess you're dissappointed with me for all that i did .
im sorry mom .
i just cant control myself .
im not a good daughter .
i always think for myself .
i guess tonight you will come back home to see us .
i just hope to see you tonight ,
but im just to afraid to see you because i've hurt u with all my wrongdoings .
i missed the kiss , the touched , the hugs and even the beatings that u gave me .
how i wish i could rewind all this back .
and abg hirsham is not with us too ..
i miss him too ..
it's gonna almost a year he's not back .
please come back brother .
i miss spending my time alone with you when no one is accompanying me at home .
for babyboy ,
i just hope this hari raya you could change ur attitude towards me .
stop being angry without a reason .
u know i love you so much .
i've never love someone like this before .
i hope you would be my 1st and the last baby .
7 months we've been together baby .
and i just want us to be forever and always .
i love you baby .
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL !
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN !
its been soo long we didnt take pics together .
i miss sleeping with you at night .
fever boy .
i love you .
tats my baby ! 
us in the f&n classroom .
my punjabi suit for hari raya .
:)
babyboy shiok sendiri .
take 2 . 
me and maine during teacher's day .
again .
and again .