just pictures of me and some wif my jasmine .
so , i didnt blog for the last 2 days ..
i've to start frm the 9th - 11th dec which was today ..
9th dec
the bad day of my life .
i meet dear wif jasmine ,
just chilling as usual ,
but seriously i got no mood .
no mood as in im lazy to entertain bf .
so , its like we didnt talk much .
and on that ,
i didnt bring my hp along .
coz im scared if suddenly (E) msg or call me when im wif soni .
and for that whole night ,
soni was wondering why i didnt bring my hp along .
and that was my 1st time i left my hp at home when i meet him .
........
after a few hours chilling together ,
we send min home coz the next day she's working .
and then we headed to eastcoast park .
we talk , talk , talk .......
and he stills wondering ....
its like that day wasnt a good day for us .
so , in awhile more he send me home .
we r not as before .
he just send me home like that ,
we a kiss on my cheeks , eyes , forehead , nose ...
and even a hug ..
and im the cause for this ..
then at night ,'
he called me ,
he asked me to be honest to him why im like that .
so , i told him the truth .
i told him that ,
for the whole 4months we've been together ,
i still cant forget (E) ,
its real hard for me .
i just dont know why ..
he was shocked ,
and he said ,
that means all tis while i didnt love him ,
im using him ,
taking advantage of him and he was damn dissapointed wif me ,
he just cant believe it .
and i told him just give me sometime to think bout this ,
its not the matter of choosing which one that i wanted to be wif ,
its just to sort my mind out ,
whether should we continue or just split bcoz of the lost of love towards him .
i know u're damn heartbroken on that day .
but im soo sorry .
i dont want to lie to my own feelings and to u .
he even think of a solution ,
and that is to break up .
then i told him ,
breaking up is not the best solution .
the thing is that ,
u just have to give me sometime to think .
so , ya ,
he let me think through and i need to give him the answer the nxt day .
i slept at 6am on that day .
im just too confused wif myself ..
haiz ...
and the next day ..........
10th dec
he called me ,
and asked for the ans .
i still cant ans ,
i just kept mummed ..
then that afternoon ,
he wanna meet me for awhile .
when we've met ,
the 1st thing that he did was kissing me n hugging me .
hmm ..
its weird huh .
then blablabla ...
as usual ..
then at night we meet again ,
but before that ,
iza came to my house .
imy gal !
then she wats me tell me what happened and all ..
so , i told her everything ..
blablabla ..
one thing that i like bout iza ,
i just love the way she gives people an opinion .
she's just the best !
after i think through it ,
what she have said is true .
and on that moment i feel like hugging bf .
so , at night meet dear wif iza .
we send iza home .
then after that ,
bought some drinks and food and headed to eastcoast .
bf was telling me story about what ..
i cant remember ..
what i can do is just stare at his face and pretend to listen to it .
and and and suddenly ,
surprisingly ,
tis was what sabina did ,
she hugged him tightly ,
she said she miss him so much ,
tears rolling down her cheeks ,
and she even said to him that she's feeling guilty .
omg !
surprisingly eh sabina .
this was like the 1st time i did this to someone .
and i guess he's the MR RIGHT for me .
i just love u so much my dearest kambeng
dear , 6 more days to our 5th month .
and i cant wait for that .
so fast time flies by .
i just cant believe that we're heading to our 5th month .
let me see what surprise u gonna give me on that day .
im nervous for the surprise !
lol !
i love you !
